Are you a perfectionist?  I USED to be...or so I thought.   I realise I still am... I experienced an "artist's block" from about Thanksgiving to the New Year.   I couldn't shake this gremlin sitting on my shoulder telling me that everything I  created was NOT GOOD ENOUGH!

That voice would shout loud and clear as I approached the easel, picked up my sketchbook or even glanced at the unfinished works sitting at my workstation!  I was in the DOLDRUMS! 
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"Teddy" acrylic on masonite 8X10 in. Private Collection
To my dismay, this creeping gremlin showed up when I was working on TWO commissions.    I was working on a portrait of Teddy (from Arion Farms...he's my favourite!) and a poppy painting for a Texas friend.  Poor Teddy languished on my easel along with a field of unfinished poppies !  How did I get through it all??

Well, once I got through with the moping :-),    I shouted to myself ENOUGH!  AND I rolled up my sleeves and went back the the beginning.   It was this small sketch of Teddy that helped me.  
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"Sketch of Teddy" acrylic on canvas panel 5X7 in. Private Collection
I don't want to say that taking commissions created the block...I really think I was on my way to a block...now that I look back.  There certainly is more pressure to create  that perfect painting for someone else...the work is not just about ME anymore!

One big change that I will pursue is one that I've heard other professional artists suggest about commissions:

Paint 2-3 variations of that commission.  This can be done in different ways...small sketches (sort of what I did with Teddy) or 2-3 larger pieces of the same theme or request.  Then the collector can choose.  This concept of choice leaves the "critiquing" to the collector not to the perfectionist gremlin!  

It's like practising a piece of music.  I need to play things over a few times (well in music for me LOTS of times!) until I learn to interpret and connect with that song.  I can apply this to my paintings.

 Angie and Michelle...thanks for your patience while I worked through all of that.   
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"Angie's Poppies" acrylic on Gallery wrapped canvas 16X20 in. Private Collection
BTW,   this weekend Castanet News posted a new video for Arion Farms and guess who the Star is?  Teddy!  and his great owners!  Take a look!
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"Yellow Rose Up Close" acrylic on masonite 6x6 in. $60.
 


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02/27/2012 09:39

You are an artist Sheila, no question! :) I go through these phases regularly and I'm pretty sure it's just part of the growing process. Your experience/sensitivity starts to outpace your skill and then dissatisfaction sets in. You're tackling it well, though. Reducing your expectations and just showing up at the easel are your best ways to deal with it and before you know you've caught up and then the magic starts to happen! But mark my words, the magic can't happen in a vacuum so just continuing to paint (practice! practice!), even if you hate it, is your only way to throw it off. And have I said how much I love the poppy painting? :)

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Thanks Andrea!! Yes, I like how you describe the outpacing and about reducing expectations...I thought I "mastered" that "gremlin"...maybe in somethings :-) And practice practice! That's why in my need for order I set monthly themes...it doesn't mean I solely stick to it...but it gives me a REASON to practice!
LOL yes I have heard you say that you love the poppies! Thanks so much! MOre to come...

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02/27/2012 13:10

Ya- I love those poppies too. And you really, really captured Teddy! The video really helps point that out.

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02/27/2012 13:43

Thanks Monique! I will be doing more poppies and ponies :-)! And wasn't that a lovely video! Teddy is a gem!

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02/28/2012 17:03

Depending on what it is, I can be a perfectionist.

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02/29/2012 12:55

Yes Teena, I think I'm like that. I really thought I'd left it behind with my art, but it creeps in sometimes. I'm certainly not a perfectionist in things like house keeping and meals!! I probably need a bit more of perfection in those areas!

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08/26/2012 16:58

How do you signup for a blog from Weebly?

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